Jan 30, 2009

Running away... God, please lead me to you.

LEAD ME TO THE CROSS
By: Hillsongs



To be honest, I'm feeling very down lately. It's that feeling of emptiness like nothing is worth looking forward to anymore, like all the hopes within me is drained away, leaving my soul wrecked and dying...

I'm being closer to God now than I was ever before however. It feels like I've been running away and closing myself off from the face of the earth, at least for this whole week... but God is showing me that what I've been doing will only add to my pile of agony.
... that I'm a coward.

It's gonna be so difficult and I'm very scared. Almost my whole life I've been running away when faced with a challenge or difficult situation. I'd rather give up... but this habit is hurting me so bad lately that I just can't bear it anymore.

I'm going to face my fear today. Please, God help me reach your heart. Amen.

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Another horrible attempt at watercolor -____-;;;a... Hm... what was i thinking... well, i'm not so sure since I'm sick today and trying to get over my serious stress/borderline depression. Guess it does say something about the state of my mind right now huh, lol.

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